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Monday, March 5th, 2007
10:43 pm - So far, so Good

Wow, only a day later, I am here again. I have decided that there is no point in having the internet in your house, and never getting on. So here I am!

Today was fun. I met Katie up at BDs and then we went to the mall. 
 I almost bought my DooneynBourke...   I will love it so much!

Then my hubby took me out to dinner to Luckys, and then we went to see Kim and Eric. I hadnt seen that grill in a few days. She tough me some sign language. My fav letter in sign is "P". Then Ron said that it was time to go up. I didnt want to. 

I am glad that I have another day off tomorrow.  I am going to.. sit and do nothing all day. 

Chatting it up online......... 

Good night <3

current mood: sleepy

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Sunday, March 4th, 2007
10:54 pm - Falling off the face of the earth...
You would think that after so long, livejournal would just kick you off, seeing that you havent even logged on in like a year! Nope. 

Alot happens in one year...

*I moved out of the house
*I am not attending school right now.. will be in the fall
*working still, Down On the Farm
*still with Ron... a year and a half
*living with Ron in Lapeer... amazing
*added a tattoo and piercing in the picture... a belly button, and WWJD on my ankle
*got baptized on October 15, 2006 into Faith Bible Baptist in Lapeer
*lost a friend... Crystal Reddy from Powers... "Walk with Jesus, darling!"
*have restored my relationship with my mom
*remain BFF with KLB
*have hair past my shoulders
*I grew up
*starting to think about a wedding :) 
* I have changed... alot
*I now see my life alot differently than before
*made a sacrifice... a hard one
*fell more in love
*made plans
*and much more!

This year is going to be filled with much more too! Ron is done with school, this semester, so that means that my life is about to take flight. I want to get married, and do things, go places and buy things. I dont know what I will be doing tomorrow, or the next day, for that matter. I am just going to wait and see. Be patient. I dont know where they are going to send him, hopefully Lapeer, but we never know. So making plans for the year is not an option.
 But I have learned that God takes you when He wants to, not when you say you are ready. So I try and live everyday like it was my last... I go to bed with a sense of content when I live by this. Life can be crazy. Friends come and go, good times, sad times, you lose some that you love, without expecting it... (we miss you "Amazon"...) but it makes you crave more... you just want to see what is up next for you, you know? Alot is is store for me!
So if it is another year until I log on to this silly thing, so be it.  I didnt fall off the face of the earth, just wondering around it, acutually.
So, as it said when I logged on... WELCOME BACK. 
                                                                                          Lve always.... Lindsey Martine... <3

current mood: hopeful

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Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
10:33 am - Deep blue need you eyes
I am a slacker. The End.

While I have not been writing in this thing, I have been one busy little biotch!
*School is going soooo good. I really have my head on my shoulders.
*work takes up any time that I am not in school, so like 90%.
*Ron takes up my other 5% that is left after that.
100% of my everyday is filled up with something or another.

But, I am very content with that. I am extremely happy with my life, and I dont want it to change. Ron and I have been talking alot about the future. We had a small "falling over" last Monday, and of course, things are fine, but it brought alot to the surface. I realized just how close we really are, and I can see now that our relationship will withstand the elements. The real test: him being gone all summer for corrections officer training in Lansing, home 1 day a week.

I have been talking to my love Ashley lately. It is sooooooo aces having her "back" She bought me a wicked awesome Journey record. What a muffin! <3 <3 <3

This Friday I am suppose to go down and visit Ms. Katee in Ann Arbor. I dont know how that is going to go.

We got a new car. A G6..... nice.

Okie, well, I need to go to class..... I shall write again soon enough.

p.s. I love Kimberly Lynn Bryant-GubanZik.... just.

current mood: cheerful

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Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
10:36 pm - I'm Back!
Hey there! I cant believe that it has been like a month since I have gotten on this thing. I guess I have been busy, or lazy, or both.

Nothing too interesting has happened since I last wrote. Getting ready to go back to school in about a week. Blah.

Still with Ron... and even more in love than before.

I am at Ashley's right now, it is sooooooo nice to see and talk to her again and share sex stories and watch porn, hahahaha. I love her just.

Last week my car got broken into in my drive way and they stole my cd player and wallet. It sucked. Ron got me and new cd player yesterday though.

Well, I have to get up early tomorrow so I better get on the go. I will talk again soon!

p.s. I <3 Ronald William Thurlow....

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Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
10:31 pm - Today...
I got taken on a shopping spree. I got to go into American Eagle and got everything I said that I liked. I am a spoiled little brat. But it is because my boyfriend loves me!

I am not upset at all that it wasnt a ring. The thing is, I know that it will probably happen, and it doesnt have to be now. I love Ron so much, there is no way that I would do anything to ruin it, and I know that he loves me too. "unbelievably" he says. "I just cant say it enough!" Last night we were laying in bed, and he put his arms around me and looked right at me, and said "I cant wait until I get my good job, so I can come home to this everynight." I have no doubt in my mind! These feelings are nothing I have ever felt. Not even with Andrew.

Tomorrow=finals and snow. Eew.

Hang in there Kim. I am here for you. I <3 u grill!

Time for bed and Ron. <3

current mood: grateful

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Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
9:01 am - Home sweet home....
So, I have officially been at home since last Thursday night, and things are great. My mom and I are getting along soooo well. Kicking me out was a good thing I guess. It changed alot.

I am so glad that school is winding down for the semester. I am really looking forward to that 3 week break, but then, it is back to the same old, and more.

I hate the fact that Kim and I go back and forth all the time. For being as close as we are, we always miss the target on what we are thinking. One minute, we can read each other's minds, and the next, we see right through. I love her so much, but sometimes I dont see how we do it! I hope that we can spend the day together today, and regroup.

Yesterday at 7:25 am....
"ring ring" my cell phone rings. Caller ID: Ron
Me: "hello"
Ron: "good morning sweetie!"
Me: "wow, you are up early!"
Ron: "yep. are you up for company?"
Me: "um, yeah..."
Ron: "come outside then!"
And he had gotten up 2 hours early, just to come over and go back to bed with me for awhile until he had to go to school. <3 <3 <3
Aparently he got my Christmas present, and aparently, I am "going to love it" I asked what it was, and he said that I would find out when everyone else does. (????) He said that he got me 2 things, a small present, and a big one. I get the small one tonight, but he says that we have to go get my big one tomorrow. (?) When I asked him to give me hints, all's he did was smile and put his fingers in the shape of a small box. "Big and shiny" he says. I asked if it was expensive, and he said that it didnt matter. I asked him where he got it, and he said that I would know. I cant wait until tomorrow.

Things are falling back into place. Nice.

p.s. I am getting another tattoo. Ha. #3.

current mood: anxious

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Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
9:10 am - Reasons...
So, as you can see, it has been a long time since I have written. There are several reasons for this.

Last Sunday, my mom told me that I needed to leave for awhile. So, I am staying with my sister in Owosso. I have been there for a week now, and it has been the longest week of my entire life. My stress level is out of control! It seems like nobody gets it, and so I just dont bother explaining it. My mom and I have talked to each other, but I am not sure when I will be going home. If you guys need to talk to me, call my cell, ok? It is truly a rough time for me. I break down under pressure, and snap over small things. I have not slept for nothing, or eaten a decent meal that is good for me. A wreck, I tell you, that is what I am.

The semester is coming to an end, which is good, but along with that is finals, and it is really taking a toll on me.

Ron is what is keeping me sane. He is right next to me all the way, and had given me so much love and support to keep me going. This past Saturday was his family Christmas party, and we spend the entire day together. I love his family, and they loved me, and I spent the night with him. We layed in bed together and watched the snow out the window. It was the most intimate thing EVER. He said that he had never felt so happy in his entire life! Now I have my own toothbrush at his house, for future "sleepovers." It was amazing waking up to him in the morning. ahhhhhh. <3

Clay is back, hip hip horraaayyy! I missed that boy like the dickens!

Getting a bad cold. #$^^&#$%&#$%&#$% WINTER!

So there it is, my life right now in a nut shell. I gotta go back to class. I'll be keeping in touch.

current mood: sad

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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
8:52 am - My Life As it Stands...
Not too much has happened since I last updated this thingy.

I did get a laptop computer, which cost me a fortune, but hey, it is a pretty sweet toy to have, and it is all mine.

Sunday night at work, I was mad because I ended up having to close. So, I was like "oh well, at least I'll make some more money." NOT. At the end of the night, when we were closed and about to leave, someone stole my black book off the counter, and inside was the $50 I made. Also inside, was a photograph of me and my dad together. It was my favorite picture, and the only one of it. I kept it with my all the time, and now it is gone. That is the second time that bitched have stolen from me at work. In the past month!

I didnt see Ron for 4 days. It sucked, but we spent yesterday together before I had to go to work, and it was amazing.

Clay is going on a cruise, and will be gone for... a long time. I am going to miss the heck right out of him!

I am getting excited for Thanksgiving. Going out to Chesaning to Uncle Larry's house, whoo hoo!

Okie, I am outie. Going to go wait for Kim. Today is a busy day for me!
Lindsey Martine

current mood: anxious

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Thursday, November 17th, 2005
11:37 am - SyMpToMs Of YoU
Yes, I know it. I havent updated in a while. That is because there is always something or another that I am doing.

Since my last update, I:
*recieved a superficial burn on my left hand and arm at work, and it was so cute, my lover came and took care of me that night.
*signed up for next semester classes, which I have six (6) all together. AAh!
*had a flat tired, which Ron took to the tire place and fixed it for free.
*have decided that since everything else in my life seems perfect, that I might as well remake myself. I started tanning, and working out, and we will see. ha.

And if it wasnt anything new, I am totally in love with Ron. I will not see him until Sunday, which is torture, but we will deal with it. Yesterday when he was leaving, he pulled me so close to him, and wispered "thank you for being my friend" and I squeezed him and told him that I would never leave his side. Last night he called me and said that it had only been a couple of hours, but he missed me so much. *sigh* I think I am dreaming.

OH, and I am getting my new laptop computer on Saturday morning. I am soooo excited, I cant stand it.

:( I am sad that Kim and I cant spend the day together during our break, because we had toooo much fun on Tuesday. But she got herself a car, and she had to go take care of that all.

Well, time to research for the english paper, and then I am going home, tanning, get something to eat (wad up Arbys) and then doing homework until I come back to school for mathematics. Blah.

Have a splendid day babes. Hit up the mobile device if desired. <3 <3 <3

current mood: calm

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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
11:39 am - And if you wonder, about the spell I'm under...
So yesterday was amazing, let me clarify this...

After he got out of school, Ron came over and we spent some time together. I didnt want him to leave, but I knew that I had to go to work. (Which sucked)
Then, after I got out of work, he came over and we watched a movie. I knew the whole time that I wasnt going to see him again until Sunday night, and it made me sad, so on the way back taking him to his truck, I was crying and stuff. We get back to his truck and got out of the car. I was soooo upset, and he put his arms around me and pulled my head to his chest. When he kissed the top of my head, I knew right then that I felt it, and that I was ready to say "it". So without looking at him, I said "I love you" and looked up at him, and said "I just want you to know that, and if you arent ready to say back, that is ok, but I just want you to know..." and then he cut me off, looking straight into my eyes, and said "I love you too" and pulled me close again and said "I love being with you, I love spending time with you, I love how I fell when I am with you..." And that was that. I realized right then, that for the second time in my entire life, I have fallen in love with someone.

I love it.

current mood: thankful

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Friday, November 4th, 2005
9:14 am - ugh.
Well, I am just feeling awesome today having the hangover from hell. Spending then night laying on my sisters bathroom floor throwing up every minute was aces. Not. I honestly have never been so drunk/sick in my entire life.

My sister told me that my dad's last "affair" (which resulted with Kelsey) trashed his grave site and put up a sign saying "burn in hell you stupid fucking ass hole!" about a week ago. It was the first time that my brother Zack went there by himself, and it was trashed. If I EVER find that stupid bitch, I will kill her.

But yeah, I owe Ron, because last night when I was so sick, he stayed on the phone with me for hours, even though he had a terrible day at work, and was really tired. <3

I am going to go try and keep something down, and sleep alittle. I just cant wait until I have to go serve food all night. Eew.

current mood: nauseated

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Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
11:54 am - Good, Good, Good!
OMG, things are sooooo good right now, I love it. I dont think that I have ever been so content with my life, ever.

Things with Ron are so awesome, I seriously cant shut up about it. I am so happy, I cant stand it. Everyday something else happens for the feelings to get stronger and so forth. Again, yesterday we spent the whole entire day together and had so much fun. He took my car to get fixed, and then we went to his house and shot guns. (I gotta pretty good shot!) Then we went on a really long fourwheeler ride through the woods. I took him and bought him dinner and then we went and seen Saw II with Kim and Eric.

And then, something pretty big happened. He poured his heart out about the accident. Everything, and he hasnt done that with anyone, not even Eric, his best friend. It meant the world to me, and I feel so much closer to him. Things are really starting to heat up, that it for sure.

Okie, I am going to enjoy my break.

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Monday, October 31st, 2005
10:25 pm - Happy Halloween!
I havent "celebrated" this holiday in years! Ty is too old for it, and he doesnt like it anyways because of his OCD. We were soooo dead at work though, that is for sure.

This weekend was pretty awesome. Spending the entire day with Ron on Friday was like a dream come true. We had a blast together, and than later that night we went and partied with Josling and KT in Chesaning. I got kinda drunk, and Ron drove home. The entire day was amazing. Saturday I worked, same as yesterday. Today I wrote my paper, and seen my man, and then worked. Fun.

I have concluded that I am sooooo freakn happy being with Ron. He is so sweet, and so good to me. I dont want to be crazy, but I cant help it. I have this feeling, that I havent had in a long time, and I think that I am starting to fall for him. Ah, it is hard to explain, but point is, the whole thing is amazing.

What is this suppose to mean: yesterday we were sitting in his truck, and he had his arms around me and we were talking about what his biography would say, and he said that it wouldnt be too interesting, and said "I hate school, I hate work, I love you, and my family." Did he say that he loves me? My heart stopped, and I didnt know what to say. I have said I love you to a few guys, but meant it once. But honestly, I almost wanted to say it back. OMG this is crazy.
Off to the shower and to bed. This is a little overwhelming!
<3 Linds

current mood: grateful

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Thursday, October 27th, 2005
9:29 pm - The Plan...
So, I really dont understand why my life cant like every other 18 yr old college freshman. These are suppose to be the best years of my life, and yet, they are the worst.

I have this plan, and it is probably the dumbest decision that I have ever made, but there is no other idea that I have that will fix thing. Noone is going to understand, it is complicated. I have figured that to prove to my mom that I am a good person worth living life, I am finishing his semester and not going back until the following fall. I am going to get another job and work my ass off, not spending a dime. In a few months when I get my feet on the ground, I will go back to school when all of it is paid for, and I dont owe someone a million bucks. Maybe then my mom will look at me and say "wow, she really is worth the body she walks around in." And maybe, if I am really really lucky, she might even think of me as a slightly OK daughter, not worthless of 18 years. Maybe. But that is asking for alot.

Wow. I kinda hate this. Really. Desperation and helplessness are like the 2 worse feelings. Put together, it is a train wreck.

current mood: sad

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Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
12:06 am - Like, my heart is beating so fast...
Tonight was like the single best night I have ever had. (Or one of them)

After school I met Ron and we drove into Lapeer, my home town, what what. We went shopping for awhile, and then we went back to his house.

In the dark with nothing but a flashlight, we walked arms around each other down the trails, leaves crunching under our feet. We stood in the woods on a small hill, looking down at the pond in the middle of the woods, and when he put his arms around me and rested his chin on my head, I decided then that it was perfect. We walked around all night in the woods through trails and just talking away. Sometimes in the corner of my eye I could see him looking at me, and it made me smile inside. He is sooo sweet to me, it is unreal. I hated saying good bye for the night. I can still smell him on my clothes.

This is something very good. I have a feeling in my stomach.

What a way to end my night.

Sweet dreams....... <3<3<3<3<3<3

current mood: peaceful

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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
1:19 pm - ugh.
So, things are lame right now. Way to make me feel like a shitty friend.

Why is it that I ALWAYS have to feel like that? Am I really a bad friend? Ah, these are the times that I wished I was the looser and nobody ever talked to me. That way, there would be no drama.

ANYWAYS, I went back to church today for the first time since my dad died. I missed it alot, and plan on going every Sunday if I can.

So, eff this day, I am going to go have some fun on my break. Then, its math, which is just the most perfect f-ing way to end my day.

current mood: annoyed

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Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
2:17 pm - sweet fall day
Thanks for holding me and letting me sleep in your arms last night. I didnt want you to leave.

Today is such a nice fall day! I am pissed that I have to leave for work in 15 minutes. I hate working all the damn time! I want at least one day off a week, where I can sit and so nothing. I am tired today. Ron practically spent the night last night, didnt leave until early this morning. I fell asleep watching a movie, and he woke me up when he was leaving. I wont see him for 2 days. Ah!

It sucks that I didnt get to see my Ashley A yesterday, but I did see Ms. Colyer. It was pretty sweet. Now I need to see Ms. Odom.

Well, of to work... blah.

Have a great day loves! <3<3<3

current mood: content

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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
12:20 am - I dont want to go to sleep tonight...
...because today was so perfect.

Spending almost the entire day with Ron was awesome, minus the few hours I was at work. He came over after he got out of class, and we watched movies and what not. And then, I just missed him so freakn much, that after work, I went and picked him up so we could spend a few hours together (cuddling on my couch!) On the way home, he never let go of my hand, and than we started talking about how his mom is really excited about us, and I asked him what he considers me, when he is talking to ppl, and he said the best answer...

"my girlfriend... MY GIRL!"

I told him that I liked the sound of that, and he turned to me and said "I do too!"

And that was that. He sealed it with our first kiss.

So, now I am going to go close my eyes, and soak it all up. The butterflies might go away then.

*I miss you Jessica Annette Colyer, Ashley Michele Odom, Ashley Aragon, BB, and my Vonnie.*

Oh, Ashley A, sorry about "Scottie 2 hottie for his body, he is looking for a hot mama, and going through some tuff times!

I love u K*protostar!
<3 L*protostar

current mood: happy

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Saturday, October 15th, 2005
11:40 am - Sweetest Day
Happy Sweetest Day to all my babes out there.

I am eating a crunchwrap right now and on it are 9 packets of fire sauce. Yum.

I am soooo upset that I didnt get to go camping last night. I was so pissed! But I guess that it is ok, because Tuesday night Kim and I are going to have some fun fun fun.

Ash, I am so glad that we can have deep conversations about, ya know, sex. Its fun. Thanks for the energy drink! (Sorry I didnt call you back last night)

I am not getting much of a sweetest day, but around 12:45 last night, there was a knock on my window. I didnt look out, but I put on some clothes, and walked outside to see.... Ron! Sitting there with him until 5 this morning was a great sweetest day. Little surprises like that mean the most. :D

Off to fiddle on the computer, and watch my lovely Desperate Housewives!!!!!

current mood: cheerful

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Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
10:26 am - rehab, here I come!
Okay, so here is the problem. I am seriously addicted to energy drinks like woah! I cant go a day without like 5, I am not even kidding. It is like a high, and they make me go nuts. I grind my teeth, cant stop moving, and I stare into space. So, if I dont calm down, you all will be visiting me in rehab. Ahhh!

So here I am at school, wasting time, because Anatomy/Physiology was cancelled. I figured that since I am never home anymore, now is the time to update this biotch.

This weekend was super gay, let me just tell you. Friday night work sucked. 2 ppl called in, so there was like 3 servers, and we all were going crazy! Then Saturday night, my wallet got stollen out of my locker at work, and now everything is gone. I have no ATM card, no license, no school ID, nothing at all. I have to go replace it all, and the thing is, I know who did it, and there is nothing I can do about it! Then on Sunday, I was suppose to get out early, and I had to stay really late, because ppl call in. I had plans with Ron, and thankfully, Eddie let me go in time to make our movie. The only good thing about the weekend, was that I ended it with Ron. Sunday at work, he drove all the way here just to see me for 15 mins at work. <3 <3 <3

Oh, and to top it all off, I almost died yesterday. I am not even close to kidding. I was going 45, and a guy ran a red, and within 3 seconds, I was at a dead stop, thankfully still having brakes on my car. If we wouldve hit, Clay, I and prolly the other jack ass would be dead. It was too close.

But yeah, hopefully this week will be better. Tonight=bonfire at Erics with Kimmie and Ron.

Wednesday=Jess and Ash

Friday=camping in the boonies with the hicks+lots to drink....

Have a great day all you boos out there!

Much <3 <3 Lindsey Martine

current mood: crazy

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